Marie and Sofie

Twins!

I finally had the twins a few days ago. They're small, and were born premature, but... Oh, gods, they're beautiful. My babies. My precious little babies.

And... I'm an official X-Man now! Remy has to take care of the twins while I train, though... But I make sure to spend as much time as I can with my babies. I love them so much! Ohh...

Don't think I forgot what Remy did. I'll kick his ass when... I have time to kick ass.

Eep! Twins crying! Update you more later! Myth out! Love you!

Bayou Romance

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I Can't Survive

It turns out he had no idea what was going on with the bombs. So I pestered Emma until she sent Sam and I to go retrieve him from Antartica. This was just a couple of days ago. Warren was the one who got me to believe.

Warren and I are semi-friends now, I think. I don't know. We had a good talk... He called me a survivor. And, looking at my past, I understand why. I've survived all of hell. Everything that's been thrown at me, I've walked away from. Bloody, injured, forever damaged, but I survived. Right?

I think this might be where I finally give up. I don't want to risk the lives of my children, but I don't see my life ever perking up. Never again. I am stuck in a perpetual state of tragedy and anguish. Some mornings, I don't even want to get out of bed.

Let me explain. Yesterday, I was visiting Remy in the med-bay, happy as hell that he was alive. And then she walks in.

Rogue.

Sam makes the mistake of coming in shortly after. (During the brief moment she and Remy speak to each other, he makes no indication he's married, or even states who I am. And I am MUCH too angry to speak, for fear of calling her a two-bit whore.) Sam Guthrie asks her on a date...

To which MY HUSBAND, my husband, looks like he's ready to launch a full scale ARMY against him for this single act! Like she was... Some Helen of fucking Troy or something!

Yet his wife gets seduced by some... Fake-French thief, and he doesn't bat an eye? What the fuck? Do you just not care?

I have wanted to die in the past... Repeatedly. Contemplated suicide, but tricked myself into thinking it'll get better.

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It won't get better from here. It's only going to get worse. After the twins are born, I might just... I might really do it...

I... I...

How could this happen...

All of the students went on vacation, Sofie too... I opted to stay home, I wanted a bit of peace and quiet. Things were fine until today.

I went down to the rec room, just to relax in the company of anyone else who stayed behind. The TV was on the news. The island the children were at was attacked, and... I don't know who's alive, or who's dead. And I'm scared.

And then Warren comes on screen, to say this was caused by one of our own. A thief among our ranks had stolen the explosives used.

My own husband is responsible for this. My own husband! I could scarcely breath. I can't even begin to understand...

Paige Guthrie had to help me to my room, where I proceeded to remove my ring and hide it...

And all plans for my wedding were immediately ripped to pieces, and now stretch across the bedroom floor.