Things I Have Learned On Utopia

1. Do not throw things into the ocean. Namor WILL get you.
2. Getting everyone on Utopia to wear Santa hats will not happen, no matter how much you beg.
3. Tigers do not like the smell of Dior.
4. The Danger Room is NOT a Virtual Reality Video Gaming system, no matter how much we want it to be.
5. Emma Frost is very proud to admit the only "fake" thing about her are her tits, everything else was built through sex and exercise. 
6. Scott Summers is one very lucky jackass.
7. Lightbreaker, my teammate, gets drunk off of pure eggnog too easily and should thereby be banned from it.
8. It is exceedingly fun to make fun of any "X-MEN" film in existence.
9. Do NOT piss Emma Frost off. She can make you think you're eight months pregnant and female without regretting it.
10. Being engaged to Remy LeBeau is like having the plague. Except twice as deadly, and a hell of a lot more fun.
11. Once you get to Utopia, you never want to leave, or trade it for anything.

I Need To Feel Real.

I can just feel my sanity cracking, slipping away, falling to pieces around me. I'm losing Victor, god damn it, I'm losing him! If this were any other friend, I'd cry and scream at them for a few minutes then go laugh it up with him at a club...

But it's Victor. He's the other part of me. He's... He's my best friend. One of the only people in this world I could trust and be myself around! He's seen sides of me I wouldn't dare show anyone else. Seen sides of me I'll never show Remy. Sides of me reserved just for him... He knows me better than anyone else in this world, and yet...

I can't lose him like this. I'm breaking. I can't break. Not like this. I have no sense of reality anymore, I'm losing all touch with it. It's vanishing. Soon, all I see will be illusions at this rate. I need something to hold onto. What do I have? What can I hold on to? Friends? No, I'm losing Victor. Loves? No, I'm scared it's not real.

I need to know this is real! I can't live like this! Where is the reality?!

I just need to feel real.

Okay then!

...So. I went to Yuriko and Logan's wedding, it was absolutely AMAZING! So beautiful, you guys! Ugh, of all the times to NOT totally own a camera! Just, ugh. Even Kageko looked so stunning...

Kageko... I feel like I've wronged her something horrible. I knew how she felt about me. -sighs- But I'm fairly sure I'll be bad luck for anyone who gets too close. Especially someone so refined and lovely as her.

And don't get me started on the night with Harley. Oh my word... Well. Let's leave it at that, yes? The day after that, Remy...

Well, he took me out to Paris, to a LOVELY dinner... And then proposed. ...He explained it's to keep his ex-wife from killing me. What am I supposed to say to that? "No, I can take care of myself"? ...Okay, so, I wanted to say that. BUT.

Got to kick some major ASS yesterday on Vic's birthday. So, all in all, I've been busy.

ALSO. THIS.

Myth out!

An Update On Mistress Myth

I swear I can't believe it... Yesterday especially was nuts, but to give you a full rundown?

After a while, I met this woman named Kageko. She's awfully sweet and kind. Yuriko Oyama's sister, and for a while, she had The Phoenix Force. She seems to have fallen for me, but I won't treat her how Warren treated me. I won't just brush her off like that.

Speaking of Warren, he's happily off with Betsy and I'm glad. She's good for him, I think. I haven't gotten to meet her, I think I should hold off on that.

I decorated all of Utopia with a small committee. Seems my little sculpted angels and sugarplum and Christmas-themed fairies are a huge hit! Everyone loves them, Kurt especially.

Kurt, Victor and myself all baked some cookies and stuff. We were supposed to go get bedazzling equipment to bedazzle Remy a santa hat yesterday, but...

Well, I had met this girl. Harley Quinn. Harley... She was scarred, hurt by a man she loved. I saw myself in those teary, frightened eyes. I had to help her. Protect her. Save her.

I know why Emma said no. I understood why she said no. But... Every time I think of Harley, I think of myself, too. My father hurt me. He hurt me like a father never should hurt his daughter. Joker hurt Harley beyond what any one should do to any one else.

I overreacted, and then... I got attacked by Memento Mori again. He hit when he knew I was emotionally and mentally weak. My arm's all bandaged up now. Have to keep it hidden from Kageko. After that, I found out...

Deadpool... Big guy. He died. Bein' the hero, who'dda thought? I made the resolve last night... That I won't be weak anymore. I'll be strong. He died for all of us...

With that in mind, I apologized to Emma... And told Remy I loved him.

A song that... Seems perfect for us out on Utopia.

Love,
Mistress Myth.

Hell and Happiness

So, like, I have crawled from the ashes of my ruined life to come on top once again! Woohoo!

So, after all that shit, what do I wanna do? Other than nap and recover from that fight with that UGLY ASS MOTHERFUCKING SYMBIOTE. Hospital trip was not fun. EXPLAINING to the doctor was worse.

Best part? Spending that wonderful night with Warren... Even thinking about him now sends my heart fluttering madly out of control! I know not to expect anything, but... Damn. I can't help it, y'know? I...

Oh! New Ke$ha song to dance to! Gotta run! Also. Psst. My writer's gonna be posting something on here, next!

ALSO. I MAY JUST TRY TO KILL EMMA FROST IF THIS KEEPS UP.