T-T-T-Tell Me

What I should do...

Yep, Missy's got herself another update for all you non-Utopian normies! For the most part, things have been calm and quiet. Although, poor Blindfold's trying to tell us there's some kind of monster after everyone. I know we should take it to heart, but you can never tell if she means a real monster, or something like Julian.

Speaking of Julian... His and Laura's daughter got sent away. And Laura LEFT. Thank you, Miss Frost. And... Gambit went after her.

I shouldn't be angry or jealous, but I am. I feel like... Everyone else gets my husband's attention but me. He's off on an adventure to help Laura, which... Yeah, she needs it. I know that. I'm not angry...

But he kissed Ruth. Well, no. Correction, the Horseman of Death that likes to take over his body from time to time did it. Does that take the thorn out of my heart? No! Not in the slightest! All I can think is, "Damn it, you rotten Cajun bastard, I'm your wife and the mother of your child. Don't use excuses with me."

He didn't even tell me goodbye, you know? Didn't talk to me before he left. He left me a NOTE. A horribly rushed NOTE. I'm tempted to just... Go somewhere. Get off of Utopia and go off on my own for a while. I TOTALLY WOULD, TOO.

But I'm pregnant and I feel trapped. I can't take care of myself and this baby. I just... What should I do? I love the idiot, don't get me wrong. I love him. But he's never there and I hate this... Feeling lonely like this. Like I'm going to break. I keep crying every time I look at his side of the bed. I want him here, for more than just an hour a day. Not even a consistent hour. Five, ten minutes here, thirteen there, another seven there...

Is this all some kind of joke to him?  Or is none of this real?

Mistress Myth