Vacation!

So, just got back in from a fudging SWEET luau! Well for the most part it was sweet.

You guys ever seen Thor or Iron Man at the beach? Delicious men, ladies. Absolutely delicious. Why did I op to stay sober? I wanted some adult fun! The Avengers have all the lovely men.

That aside, the beach was a lot of fun and it was really cool. I met this guy... Rion? He seemed nice. I participated in a relay race with Julian...

And there's when the vacation went straight to hell. He made me feel like I don't belong back on Utopia. And I don't, do I? I don't belong with them. We won the race, but he just made me so miserable. That night and the following day, I just... Laid in bed and cried. I want to belong, to fit in...

Then when we leave, Emma got on my case for something I said in passing, made me feel even worse.

I don't belong there. I'm not an X-Man, am I? I'm just a mutant, nothing more, nothing less. I'm a middle-school drop out without a job. I'm a grown woman with no direction in life. I'm not even Mistress Myth anymore. I'm just... Autumn Eve Trinity. And I am nothing.

It hurts more now. I can't grasp onto what I thought I was. My confidence is slipping. I can't keep doing this. I have to stabilize myself.